a_decision Lemon_Soda Difficult. Very difficult. I'm going to change. Very soon, this mouldering cesspool of insecurity will be codified. I'm going to be who I want to be... ...but I am scared. I love many things about my life. Many people... But they may decide not to be part of it anymore...when they see what I've become. I live and love all the lost souls. The lost children still wandering...they are my family as much as blood...but when I choose a path, I won't be lost anymore...and this might drive them from me... It is a steep price, but one I must pay to be whole. Do not damn me and let me go. Support me and forgive me my offenses. Everything changes, but nothing is truly lost. 031113 ... misstree in evolving, you my be able to bring others with you. those that choose to abandon you after such changes do not support your godself, and it is that center of being that you owe the utmost allegiance to. that is the one thing that you should never compromise. those who are lost will see in you a guide, someone who has made it through the forest. those who are not lost, well, they will see You. the decision is: life or stagnation? darling, you know the answer. what makes you hesitate is justifiable fear; every rebirth is like the first, bloody_and_screaming. but it is a fire that must be passed through, and you are not alone, either before or after, and after you will have even more of yourself to rely on. 031113 ... Death of a Rose it all depends upon what you are 'evolving' into lemon. if you're going to go starkers with artillery or biological agents...then 'they' will hunt you down and throw away the key (unless of course you're going to end your spree with your own sacrifice)......hmmmm..... pessimistic me.... but if you are doing some seriously healthy changes......then good on ya... cheers mate... 031113 what's it to you? who go blather from