peacefully_terrified ever dumbening Tomorrow I leap into the next fire. In the waning months of my thirty-third year, I hand in my resignation letter, leaving my mindless corporate job after three and a half years, leaving without a plan, leaving knowing I must, leaving peacefully terrified. 020916 ... god right on 020916 ... daxle I went camping once with my dad and brother in the desert. It was insanely hot so we went down to a canal to swim. The current was swift so we (meaning not me) tied a rope between ladders on each side to hold onto. My dad and brother jumped in and out while I sat on the side, terrified not so peacefully. What if I dove too deep and couldn't get up? What if I missed the rope? Finally I just slid down the side when I stepped so far that the silt wouldn't hold me, and I caught the rope. On the other hand, the july before last I left the house to go to summer school. Based on recent events I was then feeling like I had absolutely nothing to lose in life. I pulled onto the freeway and didn't bother signaling or looking into my rearview mirror. Blaring horn, flashing headlights... impact by a tomato truck. Bounced off and sent spinning, hit by two other cars who never bothered to stop. I was absolutely fine other than being left carless in a town whose bovine residents outnumbered the human ones. It turned out that things actually could get worse. taking chances... 020917 ... tempted previously aroused. 020917 ... three words peacefully_terrified waking_up i'm_watching_you 100628 what's it to you? who go blather from