his_eyes sanguineous they shoot through me like rays of light would. if i were a little less solid. they are like a subtle reminder that fate can exist and that he alone is my destiny. they smile when he looks at me. with such a quiet grace. that i want to just dive in and swim to the bottom. and just drown in them. they scream to me that he is and always was meant for me. made for me. born to be mine. they welcome me home. 080919 ... unhinged squinted at me from across the room suspicious i nodded, lifted my chin up and left without talking to him and i have wanted to rip my hair out all day and i feel ugly and fat and i want to scream because of the way he looks at me which is so not the way he looks at her it's like the same stupid story stuck on repeat over and over and in attempts to make me feel better she says if two people are meant to be together they feel the same way about each other which only succeeds in making me feel worse an obvious reminder that you can't make someone feel a way they don't which ironically always happens to be the plot of my lovelife 080919 ... ff it would have been better to have left the world behind maybe? it wouldn't have made that much difference to us. People are hard work. 080919 ... In_Bloom They are called, "Freeze your body to the ground" kind 080919 what's it to you? who go blather from