drowning_in_my_tears Bizzar i always knew you'd hurt me. from the beginning i knew you'd break my heart, but i gave it to you anyway, despite my best judgement. and look where it got me... you left me with nothing but a bleeding void, and all these memories of your smile that are driving me insane. these eyes which onces smiled in they very presence of you, now only look through tears, contaminating my face with all the love they bleed for you. and all my thoughts which were once so joyful, are stained with the image of all i thought you were. i've always been in control. i've always been the strong one, but now you've got me on my knees, bargaining with my shadow, pleading for your touch. wishing for a phone call... just to hear your voice on the other end. why did you have to leave? why can't you find yourself with me by your side? if i'm the best thing about you, and i'm the one thing you're sure of in your life, what sense does it make that you leave me behind? all that you swore you'd never do to me. and i tried so hard not to give you all of me. to always keep one eye in the other direction, but somehow i slipped. somehow i lost control, and i let go... and now you're gone. it's so cold here without you. i hope you come back soon. ruined. 040116 what's it to you? who go blather from