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Syrope
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each time i use this as an excuse for myself in this situation i realize that it holds less and less for me.
sure you surprise me every now and then with something really sweet, but all the shortcomings of the last few months...and this other guy...there's so many things about him that scream "RUN IN THE OTHER DIRECTION" but then he makes me feel...like i used to feel with you...and he wants me exclusively - a feeling you've never really given me. i think remy said it best: "he's either perfect for you or all wrong for you"
but...i love you...and you mean so much to me in this way, that i can't explain ...that transcends these categories. i can't make any guy i date understand it, but i can't let you go either. and i'm a terrible coward...i can't even bring myself to talk to you about this. lately i've been less and less sexually into "us", but i never wanted this ...larger threat to our friendship...to happen.
i'm so scared. i don't want to hurt you but i know something's got to change. you'll read this and do one of two things...confront me about it and be hurt, or ignore it and grow calloused. there's no way to win here.
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