bitter_heart ashmanzhou me? bitter? no never couldnt be all i ever did just got spat in my face i am a person despite you i feel i dream i hope just like you so screw you four hours of evaluation and you dont know me you wont ever know me the way you want i am a person not just a file not a simple paper stack of details but me in all my messed up reality all wrong inside and outside too my medical evaluation the nurse notes my scars not the emotion behind the blow that made them she sees my broken arm she doesnt feel the pain i feel ive lost eight kilos in three months im chronically underweight she warns me but she doesnt know me she doesnt know why i do it not even i do had another spell of blindness lasted about a minute apparently its some scleral thing i dont know cant understand what i did all that time ago all i know is i will be blind and it terrifies me i might have failed your evaluation today but ive failed life all along 030921 ... misstree i will not let my heart turn bitter. i will let it grow cold, and stony, and quiet, but if i let it go bitter, the taste will never leave it. 030921 ... . . 041111 ... whitechocolatewalrus i am scared for ashmanzhou 041111 ... from now on as am i. 041111 ... pobodys nerfect =O Walrus! Hello there. =) I myself was wondering about ashmanzhou just a few days ago. It seems she hasen't posted in a very long time though. =/ 041111 ... The Amazing Superfluous Man! "If this next song seems a little bitter, that's because it is, and i am" "3_libras" 041112 ... pete symbolic_fatigue 041112 ... Freak I was called pragmatic by the same person who called me a cynic just minutes before.... 041113 ... unhinged heartless_holiday gears_stripped 041113 what's it to you? who go blather from