i_think_i'm_theoretically_in_love alone because right now i'm thinking about you, at 8 in the morning and I haven't slept ((which isn't so unusual)) and i'm thinking about calling you, just to talk and wondering if you've changed since the last time i saw you, since it's been all of five days or so I know you don't I know you won't I just want... you to smile at me like you used to, back when I saw you all the time and we were just friends like we always were, but you still smiled and made me glow ((this sentence makes me cry)) and... I want to see you, but when I do I'll fall out of love (or like, or crush) with you again and fall in again on a sunnier day, like I always do i miss you i want to call you, since you're never online i shouldn't call you shouldn't shouldn't i know you don't care about me except as a friend, sometimes, though an expendable one i know you're more important to me than i am to you (two tears now, they tickle on my cheeks)... but couldn't you pretend you cared or something i'm afraid, my brother's asleep in the other room and I don't want him to wake up and see me crying please call me (even though you never have) or say hi or message me or email me or just pretend that you care and don't let me know you're pretending 041228 ... factory reject All my equations and systematic problems said it would never happen. I knew all my constants and variables and I planned out the proof that shows it's impossible. Theoretically, I shouldn't be in love. And yet, I am... 050913 ... dipperwell it_would_make_good_theoretical_sense 050913 what's it to you? who go blather from