childless_mother unhinged i_love_you i_want_you i_need_you psalm_of_devotion sending you my love like light, radio waves but my arms are empty no army of cuddle_bug s no kiss on the cheek when i stand at the stove no hand in mine at the busstop and i teach one at a time in_and_out and she looked at me this week and said 'i like your sings' and i wanted to take her home with me and cuddle her to sleep 081001 ... unhinged babysitting; a good temporary solution. also good birth control. the oldest just crawled in his bed of his own accord. the six month old bawled his head off every time i laid him down but the dad's advice echoed through my head 'if he cries when you put him down just walk away' and then the middle child, the sweet little girl. she needs someone to 'snuggle' with to fall asleep so i laid in her bed with her and she rolled over and threw her arms around my neck and kissed me on the cheek. my heart melted into a puddle. ah the spontaneous love of babes. 081110 ... unhinged i gave you away because i thought i had nothing practical to offer you; in a deserved twist of fate you may have been my only chance at real_love 190709 what's it to you? who go blather from