broken_trust puredream I had no idea. I just realised. I'm so sorry. 040701 ... puredream I feel sick. 040701 ... puredream I let you down. 040701 ... puredream fuck... 040701 ... pete last night i lay in bed silent and as of yet unable to sleep i saw a light shinning from the corner and whispered, or so i thought, 'i forgive you.' and then, again, i said it outloud, 'i forgive you.' last night i lay in bed i felt as if i had become so much lighter do you read my mind, or do i read myself into your words? i picked up a book, the lion, the witch, and the wardrobe and followed lucy then the other one into the wardrobe into narnia. i lay in bed last night, tired and unable to sleep yet feeling so much lighter 'you're beautiful' i said but to a different you because those words are so hard to say to the you i want them to be too... i lay in bed last night, until finally sleep came and the alarm went off and i lay in bed this morning thinking and thinking and i knew i had to write. and so i have. 040702 ... misstree you said you understood that it finally sank in and then, then in the crest of culmination, you come sneaking in, vulture, trespasser spoiling meat not even yet tasted. i trusted you to be able to learn, to curb yourself rather than to shit on my shoes, to have a small part of decorum and restraint for the sake of friendship rather than trying to sneak in on any opportunity, real or imagined, remind me that i am not safe, that the walls that bind me keep out all intruders and if you think that isn't intrusive you don't think. 060815 what's it to you? who go blather from