talk_to_me_dammit christmas I'm reallyreally afraid of losing him already. it's early in the game, but I've invested more thought into that boy than any other that I can remember. which may be a little pitiful but there's actually hope in this one! oh pathetic ramblings, just leave me alone. 071003 ... Lemon_Soda Reign it in, my friend. What your hoping in your head is a possibility, yes, but its also a wish. Wish in one hand, poopies in the other and all that. I really hope it works out, but please rmeember that they likely have no idea what your thinking(they arn't you afterall) and even if they do, they can't force themselves to feel it as deeply as you are. Its not fair to either of you to build a tower out of hope. 071004 ... christmas oh jesus I know.... 071004 ... daxle "In a nontheistic state of mind, abandoning hope is an affirmation, the beginning of the beginning. You could even put "Abandon hope" on your refrigerator door instead of more conventional aspirations like "Every day is every way I'm getting better and better." Hope and fear come from feeling that we lack something; they come from a sense of poverty. We can't simply relax with ourselves. We hold on to hope, and hope robs us of the present moment. We feel that someone else knows what's going on, but that there's something missing in us, and therefore something is lacking in our world. " -Pema Chodron 071004 what's it to you? who go blather from