paralyzed
mareberry i felt my heart fall limp
the moment we parted
and every day since then
has been a battle to drag my
half-alive, half empty
body
from here to there.
the Battle grows more and more
fierce
every minute,
every hour.
i feel like iím losing.

and i hear your voice every night
and sometimes
for one second
i forget how far apart we are
and i can move *both* my hands.
but then i remember
and iím caught in the still frame
of a moment of joy
amidst my agony.
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j_blue by my own philosophy 011120
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User24 once you realise that everything os nothing, and nothing is everything, it's hard to keep focus. 030701
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apocalynx makes sense, no focus, one blurred picture black plus white makes grey. all perspectives considered, i'm miles above the fence, or is it miles below, on a perfect line anyway just heightened with too much information, too many voices, and thus no decision, just apathy and a rapid heartbeat. you are not here, you are with many other boys bots, oh she comes to me and comforts me with scratches and broken veins, can i move from this futon. 041224
what's it to you?
who go
blather
from