swallowing_addiction unhinged i feel a strengthening in me. i feel like i do not need drugs to make me happy. i don't need to be high to escape myself. i don't need to create scars and scabs to escape myself. recreation turns to addiction turns to recreation. some say the only true way to beat addiction is to leave it entirely. but as i feel the strength to leave it behind me, people i dearly and truly love are losing their lives to it. i can't leave them yet. i feel like i shouldn't leave them yet. its funny how studying jesus helped me to understand how much of him is inside of me. the allure of christianity is strong in me right now. hate has drained me for too long. now if only i could heal them the way that he would have. love_is_the_truth i_miss_you i_love_you i'm always thinking of you anything i can say dear anything i can do it would always and entire be for you 021009 ... ~gez~ im addicted to nat, but to swallow her would not be right. i would do things to do her, to do with my mouth... but not swallow i would choke on perfection 021009 ... stork daddy that's the most beautiful thing i've ever read gez. 021009 ... ~gez~ god i like to think i can be of service 021009 ... merf oh yes, it's just wonderful, and we're not being sarcastic at all 021009 ... ~gez~ didnt think so. you people are so good to me 021009 ... kss I think it's wonderful, like bugs on toast. mmmm.... bugs 021009 ... girl_jane Let's hope I don't choke or puke. 030314 what's it to you? who go blather from