conflicted ClairE The reassurance is that it always tugs a smile out of you months, a year, far off later. When you talk with a swagger I must turn my heart inside out and spit out the loose change, my eyes gone wide with worry. When your voice starts to waver, that's when I tie on my apron and lay a comforting hand against your cheek. I'm never in phase. If I match my surroundings I lose my body. Out of sync, bounced up and down, that's how I survive, and thrive. 040321 ... benny profane when you stayed with me, it was in my heart. now it is in my hands. i can't get rid of the feeling that i'm going to drop something. it terrifies me. 071003 ... *sigh* I don't believe existence inherently entails conflict. However, I do believe that existence in THIS world, unfortunately, does. Currently I am existing in this world. 071004 ... once again There is you and you adore me, you want me and need me and you always let me know, but just for a little and is it really love? There is you and you love me, you want me, you like me and you never tell a soul, it could be forever and is this what i want? What do you do? How do you choose? 071009 ... Isaou Love is overpowering Chose the second... 071009 ... Cant spell :( Choose* 071009 ... ungreat I showed you something that was mine, and then you turned around and did me one better, and told me. How am I supposed to feel? ....Because it's not a hurt its like a dull ache... ...You had to tell me just how much it was worth... ...Maybe that's why it's just an ache... ...Because I've been put down before.... 090514 what's it to you? who go blather from