just_waiting jennifer waiting for a smile or a nod or a glance my way or even a sigh something to let me know I'm okay 000428 ... miniver Or maybe one of those gun-click-salute-thingies. No one's ever done that to me. I feel like I'm missing out on what could possibly be one of life's most dentrimental gesticulations. I think that each occurence of this expression must cause some grave spatial/temporal anomally in a yet-unknown paralleling dimension. 000428 ... silentbob He asks me what I'm doing on the internet What could i possibly be doing on the internet that's so important that i actually need to be sitting in front of the computer, as if it bares some kind of cross or something, as if it's a punishable behavoir. He expects an answer as if he could possibly understand why. "Nothing." I say. "The get off." he says "But...I'm waiting for Alicia." "OH big deal!" he says So i call her instead and i jack up his phone bill to 15 dollars more than it would have been if he had just let me wait for her and talk to her there. he pays the phone bill, but not the internet bill. 000616 ... Becky Pretending like I don't care that he's gone. But I do. So I sit and wait for his return like the more I sit and ponder it.. the more likely he is to come home. I miss him. 010415 ... mmm i miss u too.... i'll be home soon 010415 ... Mahayana if you were i; then youd be on familiar terms [so much to reveal but i just keep on.. keeping on... through it [all] within... [stillness reminds me] why we are... [to never be fluent] ... too many insecurities to be recognized, a great deal of anguish to inflict, too many circumstances to query] just ahead of you just waiting just behind you [[all stillness reminds me to never be fluent]] 021222 ... Mahayana !damn! [that was suppose to be posted like this] familiar terms [so much to reveal but i just keep on.. keeping on... through it [all] within... [stillness reminds me] why we are... [to never be fluent] ... too many insecurities to be recognized, a great deal of anguish to inflict, too many circumstances to query] just ahead of you just waiting just behind you [[stillness reminds me to never be fluent]] 021222 what's it to you? who go blather from