in_my_head Bizzar A place so very far away from everything right now. I hate it when I get like this. I dont know what to do with myself. Whats real? He makes me weak, he makes me want to do something to him to prove just how much he means to me. But I cant. Im stuck in this place in my head where Im just too fucking scared. I dont get it. Relationships have never meant anything before. I was never afraid to let someone know what they are to me, or how much I care. Now all of a sudden he terrifies me. And I just dont know where to put all the emotion and confusion. 030301 ... god where's silentbob to talk about black flag? 030401 ... uow mush 040912 ... suicidalchinadoll its in your head. 040912 ... check that.. its in YOUR head 040912 ... rose Yes, it's all in my head, but man it fucking feels good! Just 2 more weeks and I'll stop. I promise. 040912 ... love & hate the demons are devouring me and sucking up my sanity... 040913 ... god i want to be the bullet that goes ripping through yr brain 040914 ... Lola funny how i find myself aroused by the weirdest ideas at 2 a.m. 040915 ... stork daddy if you can show me that you essentially aren't in my head, i'll share the rest of the universe (which i have complete ownership of by the way) with you. now if i could only find out why I do not have total capability in this world which obviously is entirely inside my head. 040915 ... god i can't show you shit. wait... 040915 what's it to you? who go blather from