crush_residue australian highrise I had a crush on an older guy once, for about two days. after a while the rose-tinted glasses fell away and I saw the "real him". now I sort of... detest him (ahh teenagers). but I still have crush residue. I get a "cringeflutter" feeling when I see him... it sickens me. I judge him and every move he makes, but I still stare at his face sometimes... stupid, huh? I call it crush residue. whatever. get over it, me. 060613 ... : h____ 081108 ... xorf I've had this ongoing crush on a guy who works at the local grocery store. It waxes and wanes. Two times ago he passed by with an impish grin that woo'd me like whoa: +5. Last time he asked if double plastic bags were okay: -2,000. Last time I thought about getting in his checkout line and I panicked, got in another line that had a hang up, decided to be brave, and switched to his line. I was going to chat him up, I decided. But he would hardly look at me. I don't know how to flirt- that was my best try. Now what? There's a safety barrier. Probably he's an asshole, or at least an average guy who doesn't understand multiple concurrent relationships. Or maybe he's awesome but we just wouldn't mesh. What would we do anyway? Ask my kid to go play in the produce section while we screwed in the dairy case? There's a comforting bubble of impossibility. A maddening residue of uncertainty- maybe, if. 120801 what's it to you? who go blather from