scared_of_losing puredream the part of me that's you 040729 ... Deomis the only thing that ever I held dear. 040729 ... love & hate what i tried so hard to save... 040730 ... Borealis everything...all over again 040731 ... Borealis "you scare me...because you represent the possibility of loss." congratulations... on proving me right. gah 040807 ... Syrope oddly enough, i'm not. not this time. 040807 ... cpgurrl i am scared of losing the independence, mobility that i have worked so hard to build, that i wish i had more of. then i look at my friend lily and i feel so guilty because she will never be able to live by herself, no matter how hard she works at it, and i know i will. 040807 ... Splinty you. every fucking day that passes, I'm scared. Scared that I'll say too much, scared that I'll freak you out, scared that I'll bore you, scared that you hate me, scared that you can hear the bitterness in my voice. Scared that we have a time limit on this relationship. Because either I'm going to kill myself because I cant have you, or I'm going to fuck things up. I'm sorry angel, I love you. 040808 ... pete the fear is receding.. i dont so much lose anymore, as i prepare to gain... ah well, perhaps some naivite is coming back to me? 040808 ... Isaou ...you Again I'm so careful with my words around you now, avoiding delicate topics, I'm not sure what will set you off again... So we'll just stick to the safe old things as usual, letting everything else build up where we can't see it 071003 what's it to you? who go blather from