jennie lizard i'm sorry. i am so, so, sorry, and i'm scared that you'll never look at me the same way again. i'm scared that i disappointed you so much that you won't be able to speak to me with out wincing in disgust. i keep trying to think of ways to make it up to you, to all of you, but every time i think of something, it seems like it's just a cheap way of trying to buy back something that it takes so much to earn - your friendship. i feel so wrong, and yet so powerless.. 010123 ... Sweetling Munchkin Honey Peaches Pumpkin Lovely Sw I'm sorry too, but for other reasons... 010130 ... Staind_And_Souless You believe the worst. And i've given up so much to prove myself. But you'll never let me win. I can never make you happy. Who wants to be happy anyway? 021008 ... Staind_And_Souless I always believed you couldn't hurt someone, just by ignoring them or saying you dont care, unless they care about u. Who cares if a nameless no one hates you? You can hurt me, that mean I care. I can forgive you..... I still need you. Maybe one day we'll forgive ourselves enough to be friends. And one day the barriers will fall down, one day the problems will dissapear, and we can return to a day in the sun where time flew by, and a phonecall was too long a time to not kiss. 021008 ... simple_simon independent, trustworthy, unexpressive, caring, honest, vegetarian, lost, trying, paranoid, uncommunitive, happy, genuine, numb, ignorant, nerdy, hurt, lucky, clumsy, guilty 021008 ... jennie i think this will be my private name from now on. unless you love me, call me jane. 060310 what's it to you? who go blather from