i'm_ok girl_jane I really am. I me this way. 030627 ... phil why do you look so provacative in those pictures? 030703 ... paranoid martyr phil, you ok? i wrote you an email and you never answered. i think i love you. 030703 ... girl_jane_meant I'm glad this blathe came up again...now I can correct myself. I like me this way. 030703 ... carlita the phrase i say most often. even when i'm not. i've always been expected to be ok, so it's an automatic answer. it's so embedded into my brain that i have to be ok, and help everyone else to be that way, too. it's easy to push my real feelings away, but i'm just afraid of the day they all come shooting out of me. i'll probably scare the hell out of a few people! 030808 ... x think so at least been a lot better been a lot worse i'd like to institute two new policies/ideas in life. 1)doing the right thing should not hurt. it's just not fair. 2) there should be an emotional off switch. 030808 ... Aimee I agree with you. an emotional off-switch would be great right about now. 030808 ... . emotional_off_switch 030812 ... nomatter screw you duck face 030916 ... u24 blather just invites me to swim out to dark waters. I have my ball_of_thread. 200529 ... unhinged but my heart is one big sorespot right now 200529 ... smurfus rex I used to be. But that was awhile ago. 200601 ... unhinged but the world is shifting under my feet seismic 200602 what's it to you? who go blather from