dis I suspect it made him nervous, the times he saw me watching him so intently. "Fawning," he called it. I let him use this word, because I can only surmise that he has seen similar gazes before, and has found them to be hollow. But fawning is not what I was doing, the word is an insult.

"fawn (v. intr.) 1. To exhibit affection or attempt to please, as a dog does by wagging its tail, whining, or cringing. 2. To seek favor or attention by flattery and obsequious behavior."

A better term for my attentions?

"admire (v., v. tr.) 1. To regard with pleasure, wonder, and approval. 2. To have a high opinion of; esteem or respect."

My eyes enjoy his changing moods, they watch him see his surroundings, cipher him. I learn about myself by observing my interactions with him; he inspires me to question the habits I have retained, and which, of these, I should not fear to shed.

I hope the day does not come when I no longer delight in the sight of him. I look at him with a gaze that I give to no one else; he has my attention, and all of my heart.
Phace When you chance to meet a frown
Do not let it stay
Quickly turn it upside down
and smile that frown away =)
phace god dman it if i could read i would be dangerous. * murmier* 020102
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