you're_making_me_cry squint where did you ever learn such a beautiful song? 020928 ... ~gez~ when i think about you i feel my cheek getting slightly wet its tears of joy and i have never been happier than when i am with you 020928 ... unhinged i have never felt so dead and now i'm just supposed to dismiss it as an over-reaction? i don't know...i couldn't get out of bed today. granted i didn't go to bed til 5am. but it is now 8:39pm. i haven't done anything all day but lay in bed and wish that i could just sleep sleep sleep. maybe i think this was the inevitable outcome. but i just want to be happy. you were the only thing that was making me happy. and then there was an obvious failure_of_expectation and i am supposed to forget that. i can feel things slipping through my fingers but i'm not sure what they are. at least i haven't smoked anything today. 020928 ... who daddy where'd you go? the fire tore up my room. im outside. come out. daddy? it's hot in there. i'm safe. are you? daddy, i'm scared. you're making me cry. daddy, answer me... dad d y y y 030216 ... wish~ only a poem you wrote and my tears can't be held back. 030217 what's it to you? who go blather from