failure_of_expectation Mahayana [but [.i.] feel you] ::Disappointment:: 020927 ... unhinged thank you for commiserating my own self_hate but i lived up to the expectation didn't i that i would hurt you you were my last line to earth and i just proved you right i don't deserve trust and i'm driving down the dirty road where all the windows are boarded up along the main drag with storefront signs that haven't been changed in decades next to the sign that points to the ltv steen factory that hasn't been open for decades so abandoned in the haze that i don't even want to bleed myself anymore this life is like a movie of a deserted town where no one gets through i don't deserve trust i am what i never wanted to be and i won't ask forgiveness reconciliation failure of expectation i am far below what you deserve 020927 what's it to you? who go blather from