what_do_i_have_to_do sabbie too much always too much 020707 ... squishyfarmfishy oh sab. but what you do is bein' quite beautiful. your work in "theatre of decay" is very cool. 021214 ... Marjorie to forget about you... 030408 ... Syrope to get through this afternoon? to fall asleep more quickly? to make you believe me? to stop second_guessing? to be what you want? to hold on to a single thought for any amount of time? to find the shadowy places in my dreams? to sense rather than to feel? to listen rather than to hear? breathe_out_so_i_can_breathe_you_in 030409 ... king kong ninja my friend got mad at me cuz i called his girlfriend fat. so i bought her a cake with icing that said sorry i called you fat on it. now neither of them are talking to me. i think some people are just unreasonable. 030409 ... sonk I try to close my eyes at night, I try to sleep away my pain. I'm heading down on a slope that never ends. I'm falling farther into this picture of pain I've painted for myself. I'm sinking deeper into this quicksand...with no room for struggle. With my life laid out before me...I simply wish it all away. What do I have to do to stop what I never wanted... 030409 what's it to you? who go blather from