outside_the_bar a thimble in time Outside the bar, trees with ten thousand white blossoms shiver in the wind, They fall like snowflakes to the ground - 050218 ... . . 050711 ... unhinged i dropped my coat in a puddle i watched him chewing on her neck how easily we forget what a beautiful_mess he was i wish i would have picked different felt bad for leaving him out of it we went home with other people funny how he didn't want much to do with me outside the bar the night we met there every week and he fed me more drinks cause his chances were better that way pushed me up the stairs cause i was too drunk to walk took me home afterwards cause i was too tired to talk in protest and i used to think of someone else closed my eyes and he was someone else i have scars on my left nipple 050711 ... margaux he smoked a cigarette & then went back inside to finish his beer. i watched him leave & asked the guys in the van what they were eating. they gave me some quesadilla, & i said i made better. 050712 ... jane i punched shawn in the face..twice. dave said to him, dude, you're going to get your ass kicked. 050712 what's it to you? who go blather from