moving_forward unhinged wading through the muck focused on the now when i thought about moving back to milwaukee to be with you it felt like i was moving backwards literally and figuratively now that i live my life alone without you it feels like my heart is moving backwards literally and figuratively but i think i was always too emotional, intuitive for you so scientific and exacting so these days i'm looking for someone any one that's in touch with their feelings so i can be in touch with mine 121202 ... no reason recognizing what's useful and what it is detrimental 121202 ... grr "what is". surprised detrimental hasn't been linked yet. 121202 ... unhinged i think of all the things i should tell you. what you should know about my past so that you can decide if you want a future with me. maybe it's too soon for all that. but i have always gone with my gut/heart. especially with people, the ones i choose to bring into my life, why i choose them. my heart is telling me to grab your hand and share my life with you. it is not just some physical need even though the hormones are there. i don't want to make the same mistakes with you that i've made with all the others. i want to show you my heart, even the dark twisty parts. now, right now, so that if you can't bear it the parting won't hurt so bad. like the proverbial bandaid, ripped off fast. maybe it's too soon for all that. maybe there's no reason to wait. 121221 what's it to you? who go blather from