i_need_to_take_some_time_away Mahayana it has to come this that i need to take some time away not that im looking forward to this at all but that this ... longing to be with you in physical form has grown so intensely that i can not do anything but write about you when you are not here, ponder about you, & when you are here with me- all i can do is talk and talk with you ... which is a wonderful consolation prize for not being able to be by you, but if i keep this up any further than i shall surely not get the things i need to get done done and this shall only cause further aches, pains, & perhaps disappointments later on ... if i take the next week ... as an absence from all communications to anyone in the world ... than i shall surely accomplish much much more ... than continuing as i have been stuck in this rut so with great disappointment, pain, and ill easements i am taking the next week ... thursday-thursday away from all communications no reading blather, no reading emails, no reading poetry & other expressions no phone calls made or enjoyed no writing blather, no writing emails no writing expressions i love you & this is the only reason why id endure this kind of inner emotional pain so that soon much sooner if i take this course of action that I shall be able to have a secured home, position, & situation that shall allow me to see you, or have you near me [please in the silence of my toils know & understand what I am working towards] [[& of course for emergencies I shall always be available]] 020425 what's it to you? who go blather from