all_the_beautiful_things_scar sabbie mutter and snarling and devilgrinning curling into a tight black ball slicing myself with wire opps watching her watching me suicide_tuesday 021119 ... loquenoes i dreamed of her last night and woke up with scratches on my shoulders, back, and legs 021119 ... pushpins pink 021119 ... girlnamedlover no 021120 ... ~gez~ maybe thats why i had surge an urge to cut her up that night. why could you not have been ugly, the things we did that night.. 021214 ... jane all the scars you left on me were beautiful - bruises blue & indigo, close to the darkness in your eyes when you would let me see them at short range. the pinking lines across my thighs, skin soft & tired, decorated in stripes from when i was out of line. my spine still aches from the hard wall it met (you'd think i'd be afraid of them by now) all those external, the dots & dashes, the scraping lines, the darkened skin over soft tissue, the aching joints, the raised shiny dermal layer, the way my eye once gleamed. all these i can forgive. it's those scars laying in grey matter that trip me up these days. 050813 what's it to you? who go blather from