i_can_picture_myself gay gizmo I can picture myself slitting my wrists and slipping away drifting into eternity leaving all the stresses behind leaving the disappointments with someone else I can picture myself being numb it is better to be numb to both hurt and love than to feel the sharp pains of agony run through my body It is better to be gone than it is to be here where I am looked at as queer where I am judged by millions who should be judging themselves I feel their eyes upon me all the time An eays target to those ill at heart an easy pray to the hawks circling I'm looked at by many as the weak and old of the herd an easy feast I will not be missed I can picture myself slitting my wrists and being relieved Wow, I cant beleive I wrote that. Kinda dark. LOL well, I guess thats what growing up gay in a small rural highschool will do to you. I'm better now...MUCH better! 020930 ... lost you know if i were to kill myself i prolly wouldnt slit my wrist. i would choose something more painful like slicing my stomach open and hanging myself from my own intestines. 020930 ... lost hey gay gizmo where do u live cuz you sound just like someone i know. 020930 ... jane in a boat on a river with tangerine trees and marmalade skies 020930 ... gay gizmo i'm formerly of the east coast...recently of the west coast where do you live? 021001 ... lost in a very small town. it's called wofford heights. it's more known as lake isabella because thats the lake that a bunch of towns are around. 021002 ... Rhin rhin_on_a_wire 021003 what's it to you? who go blather from