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ever dumbening no, i didn't just buy a hockey jersey.

constant crisis mode. it's a shitty place to exist. i'm spending a lot of time there. body mind spirit--all struggling, non-stop.

putting out fires while trying to build pointless flimsy grass huts in a howling wind.

victories are transient, trivial, or simply return me to zero from the negative depths down the y-axis.
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unhinged i found out yesterday my rent is going up again...30% in the past 12 months. fuuuck

seattle is the new san_francisco
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ever dumbening my point exactly. 140627
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ever dumbening and my car got stolen AGAIN (second time, after being recovered, in two months). 140719
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flowerock constant_crisis_mode

indeed.

pms doesn't help.
limited life experience outside of Tucson_Az doesn't help.
a computer that sometimes doesn't function doesn't help.
living in a closet as "roomates" with people who didn't intend on having roomates doesn't help.

I guess I'm the only one who can help (myself any way).

I will keep climbing, with one hand and a heavy pack. we will find space to live, time to make love, time to play with Goa, time to hike,time to sleep, time to breathe... friends to share it all with.
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