put_on_a_happy_face puredream In about ten minutes I have to put on the happy face. Where it to work, pretend my life is perfect. Pretend I'm perfect. And they'll believe. They'll eat every little bit of me up. I'm such a lie. 040615 ... fucking stoopid wear* 040615 ... skyburst777 "you get out of bed put on a happy face cause crying never solves anything" 050611 ... nom oh the circles i run 051122 ... smurfus rex every day, for everybody else. but I see my real face in the mirror. I fucking see it. 181111 ... Risen When you don't have anyone you can call in a crisis, what else is there? 181114 ... ergo hum I am and am not my face 181116 ... arwyn I hate it. Sometimes it's just not worth it. Maybe people need to see that it's not always calm seas beneath the exterior. Maybe it's not my job to keep people happy and comfortable. Maybe my complacency is what keeps stigma going, or at least part of it. It's so stupid. This happy face is the biggest goddamn lie and it only helps everyone else. "I'm here if you need to talk." Here's my happy face. Can you see through it. 181117 ... unhinged maybe i should stop faking it and grow some balls 181118 ... smurfus rex you and me both, unhinged... 181125 what's it to you? who go blather from