it_will_haunt_me jane i hear her toes curl under the blanket. at this point, reality is inescapable, although if at any point in my life i'd love to escape from it, this would be it. she moans a small quiet moan in her sleep. he's right, though. how could i say i wasn't going to do something & then do it. is inebriation an excuse? sorry i had red wine & malt liquor running warm through my veins, inability to make decisions, etc etc. i see her sleeping face in the mirror. i love her with every fiber in my body, he told me. i told him it was nice to meet him, & goodnight. inexcusable, i need to grow up. learn how to say no sometimes, how to look at the goddamn motherfucking consequences. but even so, we were not yours for the taking. 050618 ... ClairE I didn't know that all those men I carefully peeled from the street would become a parade, filing past me, step_in_step with you. I haven't stopped yet. 060210 ... zanna yesterday was 3 years. although it feels like it was just yesterday. 060210 what's it to you? who go blather from