i_feel_ill
j_blue
whenever
i
think
about
how
none
of
my
family
was
ever
as
sweet
as
my
old
family
,
even
though
they
are
a
hell
of
a
lot
nicer
morals
were
always
something
i
exercised
in
order
to
please
others
(
so
for
society
i
guess
);
nobody
else
seems
to
notice
that
,
or
at
least
none
of
my
family
i'm
annoyed
because
i'm
special
and
plenty
of
people
love
me
but
love
never
seems
to
translate
into
very
much
when
it
comes
to
actions
so
my
family
is
entirely
selfish
,
my
therapist
says
i
need
to
try
to
find
people
more
like
me
(
except
happy
)
but
i
think
anymore
everybody
is
entirely
selfish
,
at
least
in
this
culture
;
after
-all,
its
an
overwhelming
trend
to
seek
to
achieve
utter
self
-sufficience
rather
than
be
happy
with
the
interdependence
of
pretty
much
every
single
community
of
humans
since
forever
so
i'm
left
unsatisfied
and
can
think
of
nothing
to
do
about
it
who
can
change
the
world
?
and
if
somebody
actually
produced
an
answer
i'd
accuse
them
of
cult
mentality
but
my
therapist
is
also
quick
to
point
out
that
self
defeat
is
one
of
the
easiest
thoughts
for
me
to
have
ho
hum
040809
...
sab
kiss_me
i_feel_sick
040817
...
pete
your
lips
are
too
sweet
,
the
sugar
will
churn
my
stomach
040817
what's it to you?
who
go
blather
from
