what_have_i_done Doar do you know when you wish for something and it comes true, and then you see the consequences of that wish. not turning out how you had imagined in your mind. a fairy tale story, or maybe something of a fable. these fingers type, this mind reacts, too hastily it seems. but DAMN THE FUCKING TORPEDOES BOYS... 061107 ... nom nothing much 061108 ... jane all the time... it's almost as if every moment echoes my perpetual disappointment, you know? not one workday goes as it should, not one conversation, not one step on the sidewalk. & yet it's still hard for me to rid myself of these expectations. like i have to create my events before they happen & when i realize every moment that passes that i have no control.. well... what can you do? 061108 ... falling_alone i hate me i_hate_me i'm so stupid 061108 ... . letting_the_days_go_by 070330 ... f god.. i should have gone out dancing tonight... why am i sitting in alone.. miserable ? most of all afraid of the person i am or the person i am not... it is even more lonely when you talk to people.. like.. they just don't undersatnd, like they don't care. i don't know... what this life is... 070330 ... three words the_radio's_not_so_bad bleep what_have_i_done 110626 what's it to you? who go blather from