what_makes_you_afraid_of_sleeping Jarec what makes you afraid of sleeping? 020924 ... pralines the little bugs that crawl around people's rooms at night ... they crawl on your walls, and on your bed, and on your pillows ... and you sleep the whole time ... 020924 ... blue star adderall. 020924 ... MollyCule having any more dreams wherin Rob shows up as a zombie and I have to kill him. Rob is an exboyfriend who died in February, btw. 020925 ... kerry the thought of waking up 020925 ... sleep but kerry, you're awake when you're awake..... 020925 ... belly fire dreaming 020925 ... blamethesky he can't sleep because of his past. and when i lie next to him at night, i can't sleep either. 020926 ... Jarec dreams that should be nightmares and should scare me and should wake me up but instead i just feel immensely sad when i wake up and the feeling wont go away the whole next day 020926 ... Scarlet Photos life, etc. 020926 ... silentbob clowns 020926 ... kerry yes, i am awake when i am awake, aren't i. :) for me, waking up is the worst feeling in the world. wallowing in soft sheets, basked in morning light, i feel so comfortable in my bed and all i want to do is fall back asleep and hide from the day. waking up means moving on. 020926 ... kerry basked is supposed to be basking 020926 ... psychobabe the uncertainty of what and how things are around you. You never know whats going on around you, could it be a dream thats so real that you can pinch yourself and it hurts or reality which is so fake to our blind inhabitions? 020928 ... .-. not so much that i might dream, but knowing that i must eventually awaken 020928 ... angie I am like this little kid that never wants to go to bed because they are having so much fun being a 'big kid' and staying up super late...i always regret it the next morning and i am always tired. hmmm...guess that could be how i came down with such a bad case of mono. pure immaturity. 021003 ... Sonya Opportunities for nightmares... Thoughts forgotten... Moments missed... Colors to be seen... 021004 ... Sintina Lying awake, trying to force you to stay awake with me, although we both need sleep. "I'm afraid to go to sleep," I said. He smiled at me and sighed: "Don't be." "I'm afraid you won't remember..." "I will." His voice was so loving, so soothing. But my mind continued where my voice did not. "I'm afraid that after tonight, after everything that I've said, felt, everything you've heard... I'm afraid that tommorrow you will not have changed the way you act around me, I'm afraid I will lose you again behind that door in your mind that locks you in and locks me out..." I clenched my arms around him one last time. "I'm afraid you'll be gone tommorrow." He smiled: "Maybe I will be, maybe not, but no matter what, I will always come back... and I won't really ever be gone." "I love you." "I love you too." And the next day, everything was the same as if the night had never been. As if it had all been a dream. My fears are justisfied by you. 021004 ... Freak my dreams what I might see and what they might me. but at the same time I sleep just to dream. 021004 ... kerry i'm afraid of tomorrow. i'm afraid of the knowledge that today was wasted thinking of you. no actions taken. no words spoken. we stand side by side in silence and the air chokes us. 021004 ... madness my brother once told me in one of his few candid moments that he couldn't sleep because he was afraid someone was going to break in the house or the garage... so he slept with a huge maglight next to him and a gun in his closet. i thought to myself "for godsakes... you've beaten plenty of people, why would you be scared?" 021004 ... josie not doing what i need to in order to feel as though i've lived this day like it may be my last. have i hugged enough? have i loved enough? have i blathed enough? 021012 ... sheepskindeath i'll wake up and i won't be here i'm not here i've never been dreaming there are no dreams they're all gone i don't want to wake up i don't i don't 021013 ... Photophobe Red I ain't blathing on my last day to live. Not efficient enough. I'd record everything, assasinate a bunch of evildoers, write a will that didn' make sense - leaving all my money to a fictional_character etc. 021013 ... tessa not even nightmares scare me anymore 040725 ... silentlybroken Never waking. The world doesn't just vanish when you close your eyes. 040725 ... megan knowing that most times i'm happiest when i'm totally knocked out when i can't feel anything when i'm numb i never thought it would be like this... i never thought i would enjoy not remembering what i feel i'm afraid to sleep because i don't want to wish i could sleep forevermore 040725 ... misstree waking us up by dreams drawing desperate cries, and knowing i'll say "nothing" when he asks what's wrong. 040726 ... birdmad the surety that i will enjoy my dreams more than my waking hours and the empty feeling that will settle over me until sleep comes down again 040726 ... bijou when i'm about to fall asleep it feels like i'm dying, i'm startled by my breath slowing down and i'm conscious of it for a second. it's kinda scary. 040726 ... blahemoblah Waking up alone 040727 ... lotuseater when sleeping, one is very vulnerable to zombie attacks. 040728 ... newme mice 040729 ... newme and fire and change 040729 ... user24 moths and monsters in the cupboard. 040812 ... Fido One Veteran's Day, (At least I think it was...) Just two years ago today, I awoke to find a man Of peculiar visage Leaning over my bed He cried, "Harken unto me!" And I replied, "What mean you, O sayer of the night?" With his gallant robes flapping Mightily in the tungsten dark He made a sign 'cross his breast As if to bless his hairy chest: "In sleep you see what you saw before, The crimson gates of Evermore!" Then says I mildly confused, "Thank you very much, sir, I appreciate it much, of course." In secret I was naturally bemused. "Grand!" he shouted leaping off the bed, "I shall go now, my son, wake right!" And in a flash of misty light The great robed prophet fell over Quite and utterly dead. 041128 ... once again We stay up so late and we pretend it's ok. We're not afraid, of something as simple as being unconscious. "I love sleep. How come we never get any? Maybe we're afraid." "We're only afraid of it because there's a chance of losing time and that's really what death is... ?" Insomnia is really just another word for somnophobia. 041129 ... guitar_freak Dreams. My dreams almost always involve death. Either I die or someone close to me dies and I'm trying to save them. Weeks on end I will dream the same things over and over. Lately, I have this dream where my brother and I are in a building, on the tenth story. The window is open and he runs and dives through the window not touching anything but air on the way out. I,knowing he is trying to kill himself, am prepared and grab his feet. He is dangling out of the window, but I can't pull him back in. Then, he falls and I wake up. I'm sick of dreaming of death. It's always been like this. From the time I was 4 and dreaming of someone chopping my head in two with an axe to dreaming about drowning in the Mississippi River to getting stabbed with a butcher knife in the back EVERY night for an entire month, these dreams make me wish that I never had to sleep. 050108 ... blown cherry only what the others have already said. I can cope with the idea of tonight, but not with the idea of tomorrow. Time freezes when there is no sound other than the gentle clicking of keys, and no light other than the soft hues of the red or the blue. But at the other end of sleep lies a world with which I do not want to deal just now. 050109 ... josie knowing that I can clench my teeth with pressure that is equivalent to my bodyweight. 080716 ... now_now that when i close my eyes everything i know everything i am certain of vanishes it's at once exhilarating & terrifying then comes the onset of dreams both beautiful & horrible so palpable they shrink & swell with latent subconscious hopes & fears its the ultimate dread of waking with a heavy heart & a fleeting memory of its source or cause 080717 ... hsg rarely am I afraid to sleep. used_to_be quite a bit. manyears in fact. terrible nightmares. then one_day, at 23 years_around_the_sun they simply ceased. 090714 ... Isaou I am scared of what my subconscious is going to tell me through my dreams. 090714 ... jane the nightmares. especially the post_apocalyptic ones, or the ones about war. 090714 ... cr0wl dreams where my cat is holding a hammer with both paws and is pounding a bird and then i rescue the bird and carry it off while it screams my name at me before biting me. 090714 ... raze dying. 130122 what's it to you? who go blather from