kid
raze
i
hated
everyone
who
ever
set
foot
in
that
house
.
even
the
animals
that
walked
on
four
legs
.
when
a
bully
and
his
best
friend
said
they
were
going
to
break
in
and
slit
the
throats
of
all
the
bodies
that
slept
there
,
i
told
them
to
go
ahead
and
do
it
.
give
truth
to
the
lie
of
their
empty
threat.
they
didn't
know
that
wasn't
really
my
family
.
they
didn't
know
i
lived
somewhere
else
.
they
were
just
two
ten
-year-olds
born
without
souls
.
her
back
yard
was
too
big
to
be
real
.
i
ate
what
i
pulled
from
the
earth
with
my
hands
.
i
stared
at
her
compost
heap
and
let
myself
wonder
about
the
magic
it
made
when
my
back
was
turned
.
so
many
nights
i
stood
barefoot
in
the
damp
grass
around
her
driveway
and
watched
crickets
rise
up
out
of
nothing
like
dark
omens
.
i
loved
how
the
moon's faint
glow
danced
across
their
glistening
bodies
.
i
still
hear
them
all
the
time
.
but
whenever
i
try
to
follow
the
sound
to
its
source
,
all
i
find
is
sod
and
dirt
.
before
what
was
left
of
autumn
withered
and
died
,
i
heard
one
singing
through
the
membranous
tissue
that
lined
its
tired
legs
just
outside
of
the
park
.
it
was
right
there
on
the
sidewalk
.
like
it
wanted
me
to
find
it
.
i
hadn't
seen
one
up
close
since
i
was
a
kid.
things
you're
used
to
parsing
out
in
the
dark
look
different
under
the
twin
microscopes
age
and
light
make
of
your
eyes
, squirming
with
all
the
bald
beauty
of
being
seen
.
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