hesitating_to_press_blather hsg once you blath, there's no going back. 100111 ... In_Bloom I've come to hover over some past while contemplating the facets, the possible futures Inside me, my lungs are so tight and I weigh excitement against fear There's so much to gain No wait! There's so much to lose Nevermind, my mortality will choose the gamble again and again So here I am, breathing to calm and running down a list in my head of why morning will make sense of everything again The night that I used to believe was my friend is now almost a dreaded foe unless I am quickly into sleep There are ways out of this tension but I'm fighting not to take them and it makes me jealous of others who do take them It doesn't have to be, I've seen the time pass beautifully and gently but presently there is a hesitating, yes 100112 ... meta meta 100112 ... hsg yay! i scored a meta! 100112 ... flowerock maybe I should hesitate more to press blather and hesitate less to say your name. that one surprised me... it is bothering me more. time to get_over_it poke at me, please, remind_me I love you and your name matt matti 140902 what's it to you? who go blather from