don't_deny_me_the_right_to_feel ethereal Don't deny me the right to feel. I feel it coursing my body like a river of torment. I feel like a child who is afraid of the dark, and living in a shadow. These aren't my feelings. They're yours. You won't share them but I feel them. Willingly. I'll take it all. The beating. I'll feel the will to survive depleat for you. For you I'd give my childhood. For you I'd give my experience. For you I'd give all my happiness. For you I'd give my life. My memories are no longer my own. I remember screaming so hard for it all to stop. Running away. Taking the blame. Feeling ashamed. Denying the help. Well unwanted help is here. The door is closed. I brought a bull dozer. I won't break anything, nor will I touch. I will simply listen. For what you want. What you need. For you I am here. Always. Open. Mind. Heart. Soul. I will give you light. Don't deny me. I still feel. 040307 ... .fallen intangible beauty 040308 ... unhinged your dismissal bristly of the pain i feel hurts me beyond words 090214 what's it to you? who go blather from