blood_egg sleeping sun the emotional_tide rises and falls, comes_on_strong and furious Cursing the barren_field Another_empty_harvest, cannot believe Pulls back slowly Receding to a dull_ache and sorrow for another seed sown but not grown The memory of the two who sprouted, violently ripped up before the roots could set in Life not let to_begin Mourning the loss and the waste Dull ache Sudden throws of wailing pains Receding again to a sad tight sob Finally letting_go_of_sorrows Releasing all pain and blame Freeing the soil from its pot Cleansing_memories Embracing the cycle of build_and_rebuild Let flow brilliant_red_life_force Let go the guilt Let go the sorrow Let flow Let grow the love Let grow hope Let be me My body weeps In sorrowful_ecstasy 150116 ... sleeping sun I keep seeing you in dreams Initially I feel a boiling_rage Disgust and something so close to regret my stomach begins to burn_my_heart Fearand_anger Then you look down then away Following_your_gaze Open span of ocean or mountain Birds of prey soaring in spirals Or waves rolling and crashing gently We are both calmed and cleared Present At_peace and almost_glad Then abruptly Clumsily and with a quickness As to shatter that potential reality Violently I remove myself Stumble dive into the cold ocean and away Slide in a cloud of dust down the mountain Wishing for flight 150116 ... sleeping sun Mistake_escape / mis_blathe See_instead, Dream_escape 150116 what's it to you? who go blather from