and_i_wonder_how_i_should_feel
little wishes That i can't remember the name of the guy i first had sex with. 020120
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SuicidalAngel oh thats no good 020120
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pushpins when he casually glances at me in the video store, and returns to his rentals as if we had never been the biggest thing in eachothers lives. 020121
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Sim Whereas once:
a W I D E horizon,
unmarred blue sky and tourmaline sea,
where we held hands and kissed out
vast, liberating screams of
childlike
joy;

Now:
a small window,
set deep in a striated walnut,
(where could have been bounded the Dane,)
through which
limitless potential is viewed
in dark,
Carrollian
metaphor.
020122
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ClairE Should I worry, or not bother? Worry doesn't solve anything, they say. They should understand sometimes it's an impetus to action. Especially with a girl who deals in words. 020122
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babybat to-day 020122
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me that you dont love me anymore. and you probably never did. my whole life is a lie. what am i supposed to do? i dont care anymore. i dont care about anything. i dont know if thats normal but.. i dont care. 021223
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x you obviously do care 021223
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blown cherry about losing control of my mind 021224
what's it to you?
who go
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from