tenseness amy god, now i'm overstimulated. i run through the list in my head-- sleeping, eating, too much excitement. too much everything, i think. coming back to this country... people of my past perpetuating the mistakes of the past, while i'm over somewhere else trying to build a new castle. this sort-of inherent stressfulness in being so meta about everything. it's probably a lot about this TA union thing. pressure's building, and i'm mostly in it to try out something political, but do i really care about it? not really... 001019 ... tourist it is the tightend string that sounds the note. that resonates to the chords vibration it is the building tension that finds release in loves organic passion. when living life it is always wise to know all this is passing and nothings safe from change and loss so I shed my apprehension. 001019 ... firehunden nervous readiness? tightly nervous? internally pressurized? unreleasing energy? over-taut? 010224 ... megan i like to rub perople's backs. they're normally so tense and they don't even know it until my hands are upon them. i like to take all that away, although it's completely impossible in this stressful world. you take mine away without even touching me. you make me laugh. 030118 ... stork daddy good to know...now rub my back 030118 what's it to you? who go blather from