inside_looking_out
lostgirl
there
are
thousands
of
you
out
there
colorful
flashes
unbridled
motion
this
way
and
that
white
with
bright
from
my
vantage
point
,
inside_looking_out
i
see
your
laughter
and
your
fear
raw
emotion
paints
your
faces
and
mine
with
downcast
eyes
and
downturned
lips
my
emotional
struggle
is
unhidden
to
those
looking
being
an
onlooker
to
this
spectacle churns
my
stomach
i
want
to
be
you
i
want
to
bear
the
brunt
of
mother
nature's
chill
i
want
to
be
vertically challenged
i
want
to
fly
i
want
i
want
do
i
need
?
yes
,
i
need
.
it
is
a
slippery
slope
both
figuratively
and
quite
literally
and
as
the
significance
of
life
versus
what
comes
next
prickles
the
back
of
my
neck
i
realize
that
though
death
came
knocking
even
turned
the
knob
but
i
did
not
answer
what
might
have
been
i
chose
well
alive
is
now
soon
i'll
be
one
of
you
upturned
lips
eyes
bright
soon
but
not
yet
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...
unhinged
i
think
i'll
just
stay
inside
today
but
it
would
be
really
cool
if
someone
would
knock
on
my
door
and
give
me
a
hug
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...
Doar
and
leaving
or
turning
or
being
viewed
substance
invigorated
left
here
behind
hands
memories
thoughts
of
hands
slowly
pacing
a
life
of
gliding
of
scratching
wanting
being
a
counterpoint
a
wanting
.
.
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go
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