fake_children amy nada note: definitely not the same as real_children, or blather_children, or even works_of_art. William the First: 4 July 1996 1:04 am Claremont CA suggested by dream, after the fact. my guess is something about that Independence Day movie. in boarding school by now. Jeannie Amaryllis: 26 August 2006 3:00 am on the dot Huntley, IL dream, at the time. something about the ending of the Israeli invasion of Lebanon, among other things. still raising her, of course. Lucas: Oct 2011, I know the date and time. planned. elected. what have you. Gwen: Sept 2013, same as Lucas. the Fifth child: that one that doesn't get born. sort of crazy, but it's been a way of dealing with hormones, needs, emptinesses. at any rate, the closest I'll come in actuality is adopting a child, if they'll let me. i suppose these are useful meditation focal points, internally derived. they are abstract. they are interesting to me. maybe they can be classified as "occult", in the sense that they are hidden. definitely a recognition that time passed is that: time passed, never to be seen again. but also a recognition that memories grow and develop on their own, if we remember them. 100322 what's it to you? who go blather from