elation
jennifer
Kathleen
:
I
like
to
start
my
notes
to
you
as
if
we're
already
in
the
middle
of
a
conversation
.
I
pretend
that
we're
the
oldest
and
dearest
friends
--
as
opposed
to
what
we
actually
are
,
people
who
don't
know
each
other's
names
and
met
in
a
Chat
Room
where
we
both
claimed we'd
never
been
before
.
What
will
he
say
today
,
I
wonder
.
I
turn
on
my
computer
,
I
wait
impatiently
as
it
boots
up
.
I
go
on
line
,
and
my
breath
catches
in
my
chest
until
I
hear
three
little
words
:
You've
got
mail
.
I
hear
nothing
,
not
even
a
sound
on
the
streets
of
New
York
,
just
the
beat
of
my
own
heart
.
I
have
mail
.
From
you
.
010130
...
Happy Happy Toxic_Kisses
-
an
exhilarating
psychological
state
of
joy
and
optimism
;
an
absence
of
depression
~~~~~
^.^
I
am
no
longer
fighting_bad_moods_and_bad_days
I
feel
new
,
alive
and
such
a
sence
of
freedom
and
happyness
,
ok
well
I'm
a
lil
down
kuz
it's
my
B
-day (bleck!)
but
I'm
not
gunna
let
that
keep
me
down
, gawd
this
feels
soooo
amazing
!! wheeeeeee!!
031209
...
a clever disguise
antonym
:
depression
111028
what's it to you?
who
go
blather
from
