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arwyn I can't believe we're here already. $400 for classes, plus another $250 a month for insurance, but how are we here? He was 2 last week and now he's ready to drive? I don't think my anxiety can take it. 181024
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Soma When I grew up
left home
Drive away and didn't look back.
I was so happy to be gone. I barely spoke to my mother for five years. But we weren't really close when I grew up. She had her own issues, and I had mine. And she didn't know how to handle them both. So she only ever took care of herself.

When I got older
Struggled alone
I realized how alone she had probably been too. It struck me, that even though I felt it was shitty, she was doing her best. And she had problems.


Now I talk to my mom every week. I relish the time we have together. I appreciate getting to know her in a way I never knew her as a child. She recognizes I am an adult, and stepped away from the overbearing woman who raised me.

But it's weird, because I feel like I help her more than she helps me. It's like I learned how to drive a car, but the person who had been telling me "THIS IS HOW YOU DRIVE IT" was wrong all along, and now I'm the one teaching them.

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