coming_back_from_the_dead hsg with_still_some_time_left. it feels like you open_your_eyes and see you've been crying at your own birthday_party for a lifetime. 080803 ... p it was cos the magic man didn't come.. i wanted him to do the hat and bunny trick but my mummy told me that he got the day wrong :( So my daddy pretended to be a clown but it didn't work on me cos he does that every day :.( i don't remember much but i think i got my first real bike with stabilizers and ribbons on the handle bars to make up for it. I was delighted, i forgot all about the disappointing party but unfortunately i didn't have very long to enjoy it;destiny stole it from me and i had to fight really hard to get it back again. I guess that modeled my whole life, there is underlying trauma from that but it is leveled out by something that was given back to me... it's courage. i know myself and i trust myself from that survival. ... if i was a teacher... i would encourage looking out of the window... imagination has something very special about it because it doesn't come from nowhere, it comes from an interactive experience. give_someone_a_lucky_charm_today :O) 080803 ... its not recommended.. 080803 what's it to you? who go blather from