an_enlightening_look_at_the_past
lostgirl i never guessed that this has been a pattern....i was not the first, nor will i be the last. i'm a quick study though....its all there, all of it....every answer to every question i have.....almost like it has been written for me and waiting to be found. there are no secrets....the plain white truth lies within the translation.

(and you taught the language well, i have to say.) 		101207
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unhinged blather


i clicked on my name last night and scrolled half way down my list; took me to things i wrote about five years ago. as i read some of those things, i realized i've done a lot of good work in the past five years. in my world, and on myself. i have faith in the choices i've made. and the best ones seemed so fucking scary at the time.


so here it is universe:

i trust you to take care of me
if
i make the right choices



i will continue to make the right choices
if
you take care of me
(but i know you will)




and as i've examined the past recently
i know it's time now
to do something about the future
get myself unstuck
as_it_were 		101207
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unhinged put_it_to_bed


now all i have left is
misery
pain 		110507
what's it to you?
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