youngstown_eyes
unhinged
sad_eyes
filled
with
painkillers
alcohol
pain
pupils dilated
beyond
the
point
of
tears
the
next
day
he
swallowed
enough
xanax
to
sleep
forever
but
the
phone
rang
just
in
time
it
had
been
so
long
since
i
lived
with
it
seen
it
that
kind
of
pain
i
was
too
drunk
to
recognize
it
for
what
it
was
and
i
have
a
little
nagging
guilt
for
being
too
caught
up
in
my
own
bullshit
to
pull
him
out
of
the
hole
i
saw
in
his
eyes
the
kind
of
hole
i
lived
in
everyday
there
swallowing,
smoking
anything
to
distance
myself
from
the
reality
of
the
pain
we
all
carried
around
plain
in
our
eyes
living_in_a_karmic_hell
that
is
the
industrial_abandonment
of
all
hope
091019
...
unhinged
cry_eyes
dirty_mirrors
heroin_doll
last_night
for
the
first
time
i
thought
of
the
night
i
watched
sam
come
into
the
bar
in
austintown
in
his
uniform
and
didn't
give
two
shits
what
the
rest
of
the
world
thought
as
i
ran
towards
him
;
my
last
night
in
youngstown
before
i
moved
to
milwaukee
101014
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