soma corgan iha wrsetzky Nothing left to say And all I've left to do Is run away From you And she led me on, down With secrets I can't keep Close your eyes and sleep Don't wait up for me Hush now don't you speak To me Wrapped my hurt in you And took my shelter in that pain The opiate of blame Is your broken heart, your heart So now I'm all by myself As I've always felt I'll betray my tears To anyone caught in our ruse of fools One last kiss for me...yeah One last kiss good night Didn't want to lose you once again Didn't want to be your friend Fulfilled a promise made of tin And crawled back to you I'm all by myself As I've always felt I'll betray myself To anyone, lost, anyone but you So let the sadness come again On that you can depend on me, yeah Until the bitter, bitter end of the world, yeah When god sleeps in bliss And I'm all by myself As I've always felt And I'll betray myself To anyone 010806 ... MisterFunkadelic in the City South of Market spent a summer there just before i got my certificate to corrupt, disrupt and otherwise educate the minds of our youth 010807 ... unhinged one of my FAVORITE smashing pumpkings songs *sigh* 010807 ... silentbob mellon collie is nostalgia for dreamers 011008 ... painted marbles this reminds me of aldous huxley's brave_new_world and that book was psycho 030223 ... silentbob hindu drink, religious ceremony, hallucinagenic, nectar of a plant 030223 ... Soma Once long ago had I another name In cyberspaces and text-filled walls While daily in my home's own halls A different uttered oft refrain For years I failed to leave behind The sense of your "supposed to be..." I wept and cried and longed to flee The thoughts psyche confined "The body of an organism" termed gave Soma birth and with intent She fled on legs to start anew And after years of hurt affirmed She reconciled a mind once rent— My self no longer "me" and "you" 220108 ... raze i miss your words. i hope you're doing well. 220713 ... tender_square i know we don't really know each other, but i'm glad you're here. thanks for writing with us. 221008 ... e_o_i Hey! I like what you wrote on "beast" - and that reminded me, I wanted to say something welcome-back-ish when I saw you writing here again. And now it's later, because time keeps moving forward, but yes, it's nice to see you blather again. 221107 ... e_o_i *on blather 221107 ... Soma I appreciate the kind appreciation and acknowledgment. To be observed is both a kindness and a shyness for me. Thank raze for offering me a hand back to blather. 221109 ... raze (it's a gift to have you here. thank you for being a vital part of this red_family.) 221109 ... raze honest to dogs, i was just thinking about you. and here you are. writing beautiful, powerful things, as always. 230913 ... Soma Sometimes i feel like a prodigal child, wandering away then somehow always coming home when the mood strikes me or things are hard. Not that reliable sort, I suppose, hehe 230913 ... raze just wanted to say how moved i was by what you wrote on "hopeful" today. and "what a bastard of a feeling to bask in" is such a surprising, stunning turn of phrase. it's good to be reminded of what magic words can weave. (also, i'd say your flitting in and out just makes it that much more of a great surprise when we get to see you.) 231014 ... raze it's so good to have you back. 240110 ... Soma Thanks. Sometimes I get a bad idea in my head and obsess over it. I had to get away from my idea to write a number of new-word posts each day relating to the number day of the year it was. The new year was such a shiny opportunity. I went full throttle at it in my phone notes for a week before I finally petered out of momentum. Honestly, there was no way 364 new words one day, then 365 the next was achievable for me at this point anyways. 240110 ... e_o_i It's not the worst or least achievable idea - once I set a goal of cataloguing all the books I had. As if I was a library. In an Excel sheet, by author and title and maybe even publisher and page count. ...Needless to say, I abandoned the project, but it took me a while to convince myself it wasn't worth it (yay, ADHD with OCD tendencies). About new words, I probably won't do one every day, but I do plan to dip into and add to "prompts." I feel that the gay_whales raze dreamed up deserves a story. ...Anyway, yes, it's good to have you writing here!! 240113 ... Soma It seems we share a similar diagnosis, and a similar propensity towards spreadsheets then, e_o_i. I've got quite a few ambitious spreadsheets collecting digital_dust from the fade of that initial new idea fervor. Thank you for your kind words. 240113 ... raze "molded" knocked the wind right out of me. that's one of the most powerful things i've read in recent memory, here or anywhere else. 240115 ... raze i'm here to say the same thing about "skirmish" i said about "molded" a month ago. you're an incredible writer. we're lucky to have you. 240205 ... Soma Thank you, Raze. Sometimes I go months what feels like writing the most pedantic shit that is no different than the angst I had at age 17, or having no words. But eventually, something in me breaks and I end up writing something even I think is nice in a fervor of insanity and tears at 2am. I wake up in the morning and go "was that some fever dream? was that even me?" It's one of those things that makes me feel like I am three people in one body, but it's also one of those things that makes me feel like I am not broken at all. 240206 ... raze with "tangle", you just turned a blathe into a poem that's also somehow a piece of thought_provoking visual art. that's all kinds of brilliant right there. 240301 what's it to you? who go blather from