ruse amy adaptability something hit me like a ton of bricks last week, but i think it might be a ruse. at any rate, people who couldn't believe it would cease to be my friends out of untrained skepticism, so there's no accepting it and i better not stick more than i need to with it, if i want to have friends, or a partner, or any more life whatsoever. a VERY personal truth must be a secret. There's no way of playing a VERY personal truth in the field of humanity or any constructive marketplace. It both transcends too completely and it's got no game- But there are different levels people can angle at a secret. The foundation that underpins life in general is what needs ultimate protection. It's been hard to finesse not being bald-faced about it, but that's probably the thing i slowly learn to do, when life finds the time and my shaken psyche amenable. To have a personality and an underpersonality, when 'What you see is what you get' is just not very nice. That is the purpose. Cuz I've never been seriously suicidal. People just gotta get over that fear. Taboo has got ahold of them, not me. Also, why would i be friends with people only to give them up for ceasing to be interested in being friends w me? I much prefer steady, lasting friendship, and those that willfully give it up have a kind of low mark on their friendship report card. Facebook is for kidded people. Unless you can manage to carve it up with a good "friend" base. Otherwise it seems to cause problems. I've never been able to use it to my advantage. Face the Book, that's what i call it. 130825 what's it to you? who go blather from