still_the_same distorted tendencies No matter how many months, years, whatever. Everytime I come back here, blather is still the same. 031006 ... Flip Flop we would hope that you move on? the past is useless to us all. people spend too much time living in the past or dreaming of the future. what ever happened to the moment now? nothing else really matters. no matter how much you fucked up, today is what counts. without "the now" we are unreal. 031006 ... phil unique 031006 ... a chaotic gift to idealism and she reassures me... "i'll make you happy, i'll get you to smile." "just be in the moment" she was right. she did. it was one of the greatest times of my life. of 25 years of heaven and hell... it was one of the best moments. I find myself worrying about yesterday, about tomorrow. I find myself so content in the moment with you. who are you? who the fuck ARE you!? what makes you do this to me? how did you get so special? were you born this way? am i what is special, making you reflect myself from you to me? what is going on here? i dont care. it feels good. it feels right. it feels divine. It is. It will be. 050623 ... distorted tendencies And still the same. Maybe new people.. I am not sure. Still the same, but always changing? 050811 ... ff once I saw this kind of advert thing stuck to the pavement... they were everywhere. they changed .... who designed flip flops ? what? it can't be. it just can't be. no, my mind has left me. 070218 ... *?* no i'm going to the doctor i think. or maybe it would be better to go to the mountains alone. chemicals don't fucking help do they. 070218 ... three words account_of_a_crow_funeral still_the_same out_of_print_books 110521 what's it to you? who go blather from